An Ending

...reaffirm current truth's/priorities:

make decisions based on current situations, stay clear of 'what ifs', work hard for your dreams, allow yourself freedom from your past, remain conscious of life's lessons, x-box will ruin what little life you have...

Admittedly now is not the best time to write, it is late, I am tired and confused. However I have just finished chapter one of my Lunar saga! It is unashamedly short but a beginning has been a difficult concept to pinpoint. I think it has been made easier by the fact that the saga does not have a definite end or beginning so I have chosen the most provocative occurance to begin.

I am still concerned about my own motives for this endeavour. A reality check in the form of a 50 minute phone call to the local jobcentre helped cement this, not to mention a call to my second most recent boss in the bookshop and an e-mail to my last boss asking about my missing overtime (Which I'm told, I will not see penny 1 of.)

What is the success rate of my writing anything?

Well, if I were doing this to be successful I don't think I would be doing it at all.

Point 1. It seems this creativity comes in the form of an outlet via an ambivalence of sorts - i.e. when I should be doing something else.

Point 2. This endeavour is entirely self-indulgent. There is a world in my mind and I want to create it and immortalise it in paper and ink.

Point 3. Everyone has a book in them and everyone has an aphorism to tell.

My Mother told me 'Tomorrow isn't promised" and my Auntie told me "Life owes you nothing".

I think between them they have a very good point. Mostly we require something worth dying for to make it beautiful to live - or at least once we know the beauty of something, we are willing to fight for it. These are grand words for an idea but this is more than an idea, it is a dream.

Is that not something worth striving for?

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