...reaffirm current truth's/priorities:
make decisions based on current situations, stay clear of 'what ifs', work hard for your dreams, allow yourself freedom from your past, remain conscious of life's lessons, x-box will ruin what little life you have...
Admittedly now is not the best time to write, it is late, I am tired and confused. However I have just finished chapter one of my Lunar saga! It is unashamedly short but a beginning has been a difficult concept to pinpoint. I think it has been made easier by the fact that the saga does not have a definite end or beginning so I have chosen the most provocative occurance to begin.
I am still concerned about my own motives for this endeavour. A reality check in the form of a 50 minute phone call to the local jobcentre helped cement this, not to mention a call to my second most recent boss in the bookshop and an e-mail to my last boss asking about my missing overtime (Which I'm told, I will not see penny 1 of.)
What is the success rate of my writing anything?
Well, if I were doing this to be successful I don't think I would be doing it at all.
Point 1. It seems this creativity comes in the form of an outlet via an ambivalence of sorts - i.e. when I should be doing something else.
Point 2. This endeavour is entirely self-indulgent. There is a world in my mind and I want to create it and immortalise it in paper and ink.
Point 3. Everyone has a book in them and everyone has an aphorism to tell.
My Mother told me 'Tomorrow isn't promised" and my Auntie told me "Life owes you nothing".
I think between them they have a very good point. Mostly we require something worth dying for to make it beautiful to live - or at least once we know the beauty of something, we are willing to fight for it. These are grand words for an idea but this is more than an idea, it is a dream.
Is that not something worth striving for?
dL
Monday, 11 January 2010
Saturday, 2 January 2010
2010
...reaffirm current truth's/priorities:
make decisions based on current situations, stay clear of 'what ifs', work hard for your dreams, allow yourself freedom from your past, remain conscious of life's lessons...
In a surreal and wholly unplanned future where economies flounder and education is rendered obsolete, a change of heart and the pursuit of a dream may seem a fractured endeavour in a time when one would consider any work possible, a tightening of belts and a return to the religious filling of the 'spare change jar'.
Yet a dream is infinitely more sound than this and ultimately appropriate right now. These are times which see a return to zero; a levelling of those around us to a common, comfortable plane; there is no longer a distinction between 'master' and 'apprentice'; there is no time to waste on ceremony - just the simplicity of the task at hand; the lowest common denominator.
Here there is a creativity born of restlessness, of frustration, of the realisation that you can do this yourself. There is little to lose but everything to gain and a collective which lets you know that you are not alone in these thoughts.
My epiphany came on a Saturday night in bed. 'To what end?' resonated in my head, and I knew then what I had to do. The moment was empowering because although I was frightened, I was aware that for the first time in my young life I had made a decision based on what was right for me at that time. There was no weight of the past swaying my decision one way or another and there was no anticipation of a possible future egging me onwards. There was simply the moment and within it, I felt truly free.
My name is dongward longminer* and I have turned down a job as an architect with a world renowned architecture firm to pursue a dream which has occupied my thoughts for years. I want to write a book. This blog is the culmination of my thoughts so far and a record of what may be for 2010.
dL
*pseudonym
make decisions based on current situations, stay clear of 'what ifs', work hard for your dreams, allow yourself freedom from your past, remain conscious of life's lessons...
In a surreal and wholly unplanned future where economies flounder and education is rendered obsolete, a change of heart and the pursuit of a dream may seem a fractured endeavour in a time when one would consider any work possible, a tightening of belts and a return to the religious filling of the 'spare change jar'.
Yet a dream is infinitely more sound than this and ultimately appropriate right now. These are times which see a return to zero; a levelling of those around us to a common, comfortable plane; there is no longer a distinction between 'master' and 'apprentice'; there is no time to waste on ceremony - just the simplicity of the task at hand; the lowest common denominator.
Here there is a creativity born of restlessness, of frustration, of the realisation that you can do this yourself. There is little to lose but everything to gain and a collective which lets you know that you are not alone in these thoughts.
My epiphany came on a Saturday night in bed. 'To what end?' resonated in my head, and I knew then what I had to do. The moment was empowering because although I was frightened, I was aware that for the first time in my young life I had made a decision based on what was right for me at that time. There was no weight of the past swaying my decision one way or another and there was no anticipation of a possible future egging me onwards. There was simply the moment and within it, I felt truly free.
My name is dongward longminer* and I have turned down a job as an architect with a world renowned architecture firm to pursue a dream which has occupied my thoughts for years. I want to write a book. This blog is the culmination of my thoughts so far and a record of what may be for 2010.
dL
*pseudonym
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